Thursday, January 01, 2009
I think I've pinpointed when the temptation is the worst. I feel like it should have been obvious before, but at least I realize it now. Better late than never.
This vacation, perhaps aside from February break, is always the worst for me because it combines winter, when I seem to be depressed a lot, with vacation, when I think too much.
One thing I thought of earlier is that maybe I'm not any more depressed during winter than any other time of year. I got to thinking, and I couldn't decide whether my life was generally happy with depressed times scattered throughout or the other way around. I guess it all depends on the perspective from which I look at things.
I've started to question some of the things I've been doing for a while now and whether they're right or wrong. I fear that they're wrong, but I'm even more afraid of what the consequences of changing might be.
If I ever get some free time, I really need to just sit down and read the Bible. I think that will probably answer many of the questions that have been floating around inside my head for a while now. Cross your fingers.
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