Saturday, October 25, 2008
I'm not going to specify what I'm referring to in this blog; suffice it to say I have a "problem" with something sinful in my life. In the past when I've had a bad day with it, I've gotten all depressed and down on myself. Well, not anymore. Depression isn't going to make it any better. Obviously, I need to work on my relationship with God. Maybe you think I'm a great Christian, and I like to think I do a pretty good job of it. At the same time, if I've got this constant problem with the same sinful thing in my life, that means that on some level, I'm putting that ahead of God. God should be the highest priority in my life. I have trouble with that. Whether it's this problem, my relationship with Bethany, grades, video games, music, or whatever, I seem to have trouble keeping God #1 in my life.
For now, I'm going to focus on getting this specific sin out of my life. Getting depressed every time it happens isn't going to do anything for me. I need to accept that I'm a sinner, confess my guilt to the Lord, and move on with it. Nobody is perfect. It's not fair for me to expect myself to achieve the impossible. We all strive for that Godly perfection as Christians, but just because I fail doesn't mean I should dwell on it and beat myself up over it, especially when the Bible specifically says that no human has ever been or ever will be perfect except for Jesus.
Lord, I need you. I can't do this without you. You know what my problem is even better than I do. Please help me to reassess my priorities and keep you at the top. No matter how much I desire for the things of the world, help me to remember that they are simply that: of the world. When I die, I won't be able to keep any of them. Give me the strength I need to fight the temptations of the flesh that I am sure to face every day of my life. In Jesus' name, Amen.
